Would it be the same if it was bad news???

After another round of bloodwork in search of doubling hormones, I recieved a call from the nurse at the doctors office. She went into detail about how she was concerned about my hormones rising but not doubling like they are supposed to in early pregnancy. She wanted me to come back in Monday morning for another blood test and if those levels rose, Wednsday for another ultrasound.

I told her that this was too much for me to handle and if I was in no danger, I would rather just do nothing more but wait and trust God that all would be fine.

She was speechless and told me that there was a chance of a ectopic(tubal pregnancy) and possible emergency if it ruptured, and said it was against medical advice not to continue care.

She told me to take the weekend to process and call her back on Monday morning with what I wanted to do. All weekend heard God telling me over and over.... "Trust Me, Trust Me", through people and his word. When Monday morning rolled around I called the nurse and told her I didn't want any more test or procedures, I would just wait 4 weeks and then schedule a doctors appointment . I was relieved, peaceful, and calm.

Fast forward 3 calm hours. She calls and almost begs for me to re-consider coming in for a ultrasound. At that point I was not anxious, but wanted to ease her anxiety so I packed up the kids and took the 5th trip in a week to the OB's office.



I had another ultrasound with a different technician, and like I thought she found a sac in the uterus(just like they wanted) she also found that I had a tilted uterus that doesn't allow for good images in a internal u/s. That's why they couldn't see anything last week.She told me that my cycle dates were off and that I was 4 1/2 weeks instead of the 6 weeks they originally thought. That means that I found out 2 weeks BEFORE my expected period that I was pregnant.WOW!! She then went to to confer with the doctor.When she came back she brought the doctor and the nurse to congratulate me. The doctor said that she that this was great news and that they WERE concerned but not anymore...

WOW what a relief not to have a MEDICAL DOCTOR'S concern.
She said that it was fine to come back in 4 weeks for a regular OB visit.
( I would be 8 1/2 weeks then) I thought how great it was to be regular instead of concerned in her eyes.



Only when I took my hands, fear and worry off this situation, and trusted God did he make me see that no matter what the outcome I could trust and rely on him. He wouldn't give me the grace to handle something like this until it actually came up.
Which means the only way that I could learn this lesson is to actually go through it.UGH!!
Only experience brings clarity. I am happy and relieved at this moment, but would it be the same if it was bad news???